19.8.13

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I'm a human being. I'm far from faultless. In addition to my obvious human-ness, I'm also a teenage girl. A vast amount of my energy is given to replaying my experiences in my head until I'm sick, or filling out to-do lists for the next six months. Even when I'm focusing on being focused at present, the back of my brain is finicky; trying to map out the rest of the day, the next month, or year.

Lately, I've been a jumble; my thoughts hopping from one question to another in such rapid succession that it's like crossing a set of stepping stones. Each stone is bigger and more puzzling than the last: my soon adventures, to high school, to college, to my career, and back again.

It's impossible to tweak my history, or know what's to come. I'll never travel in time. I can't, and won't, be prepared for everything that is to come. The future is crazy and wild and exciting, but I need to slow my pace; to see what's before my eyes -- what do they call it? To live in the present.

4 comments:

  1. Mmmhmm... "I'm a human being. I'm far from faultless." Hey, girl, you're not the only one out there. We've all got faults. And that's what is so exciting- we're all in this together.

    You've got a way with words, lady. I like this post lots.

    Have a good, good, good day.

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  2. this is amazing, i love your writings, and your pictures are lovely too.
    keep up the good work mdear
    lotus m.
    from 'my words and i'

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  3. I love the picture with the friendship bracelets! And the written part really resonates.

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  4. Mhmm! Can't get over how much I love these! So summery and fun. Tents & camping are my favoriteee :)

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